Today I took it easy… I didn’t exercise and ate about 1750 calories. (Figured my metabolism could use a boost!) I am PMS’ing (quite early) right now so I don’t dare get back on the scale, but I don’t need to at the moment… my body continues to firm and tighten itself up. It’s exciting to see the progress. I think from now on I will do 3 days on of exercise, 1 day off. (2 if needed).
I know a few of you have asked what I weigh, and I am sorry that I don’t ever reveal it. I am just hesitant to do so because I am very sensitive and I’m sure some people coming over here from theskinnywebsite.com will mock me, despite the fact that I have spent the majority of my life quite thin. However, as I become more confident with myself and my figure again (which ALWAYS happens as I lose weight), I will eventually reveal it. For now I’ll just let you all know how much I’ve lost. So far, from my all-time high weight, I am -10 pounds.
One of the reasons I shut off commenting here on this site is because people were telling me that I am in danger of getting anorexia. I was a bit tired of having to defend myself. Frankly, people embarking on a healthy and active lifestyle should be applauded, not constantly warned. I have lost weight a few other times in my life and I do NOT get symptoms of an ED. I enjoy feeling healthier, I enjoy watching my body tighten and progress, and I don’t think I’m fat once I get to an acceptable BMI (anything under 24, in fact!) People who have severe body issues think they are fat no matter what weight they are and are very unhappy despite losing weight. I am not that way at all.
My absolute ultimate goal weight is 120, which at 5′5 will put me at a 20 BMI. But if I get to 130 and it becomes impossible to lose any more without starving, I will stay put at that weight and be happy with it. AND if I get to a size 2 before hitting my ultimate goal weight, I will also stop. I have a small bone frame but have no reason to go under a size 2.
Remember, I am embarking on this journey mostly for health reasons. I gained all this weight because of excessive drinking and the consequences that come with that. I am taking it off to feel and look better and to lower my blood pressure. The day I get back to a normal BP reading, I will probably cry happy tears! From what I’ve seen in the past, I need to be no higher than a 23.3 BMI to accomplish a 120/80 BP reading.
I started gaining about 2 years ago. For the last year and a half, I’ve been trying (unsuccessfully for the most part) to take it off. But I truly feel in my heart that I am finally - FINALLY - on a firm weight loss path, and I will stay on it until the day comes I reach my goal. No more of this stop-and-start business, I am now in this for the long haul…

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