Something is causing me to be extremely bloated right now! Not only that, but I’ve been having some bad pains in my lower and upper right abdomen. A little worrying. I’m not sure what is causing this situation but it’s quite upsetting and uncomfortable. And I have plans to be out for most of the day. Grrr….
I’m also a little more emotional than usual today because exactly 15 years ago (Feb 28th 1994) my mother passed away. I always get a little sad on this day.
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This morning I woke up with a strange craving for chicken and corn, so I had them both for breakfast. (Both organic, of course). It’s kind of weird, as I haven’t eaten corn in a long time!
I find that the more greens and fruit I eat, the more I crave them, and the less I crave crap food.
I had the other half of a smoothie I made yesterday afternoon with my chicken and corn, and it was delicious.
Anyway, it’s nearly 6am on a Saturday morning and I’m awake… I fell asleep early last night, as I was exhausted. I confess to having a few glasses of organic chardonnay last night… like 3 of them. I know, baaaaaad. But oh well. I suppose I shouldn’t be drinking, but I was just in the mood last night for whatever reason. Anyway, if there are any wine fanatics reading this, you absolutely HAVE to try Badger Mountain’s Merlot and Chardonnay. Both are heavenly.
I have some plans to go to a book fair with my aunt today, then do something later with other family members. I have a feeling that I’m going to break my diet sometime this weekend and have Mexican food. I should add that I’ve been breaking my diet with Mexican food about once a week.
I got a suggestion from someone in a previous post that I should go see a “professional” for help with my diet. This person is under the impression that I’m heading straight into an eating disorder. Well, I don’t count calories very often, I don’t obsess over food, I am simply enjoying eating nutritious food and trying new fruits and veggies and smoothies. I break my diet once a week and have bites of cheese every now and then. (I haven’t been able to cut it out completely). I refuse to eat grains and most processed food and refined sugar. If these are symptoms of an impending eating disorder, I don’t know what to say…!!
Edited to add: I tried on some pants last night, and there are 3 pairs that I can now zip up that I couldn’t before!
This is my third post for today…!
Anyway, I figured I would post about the green smoothie I made this morning, which was absolutely AMAZING.
From this…
To this…
To this…
Ingredients:
1 package blueberries
spinach
kale
mixed herbs & lettuce
few frozen strawberries
half of a banana
dab of unsweetened almond milk
distilled water
I took a chance and threw a lot of greens in there today… and it worked out really well!
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by Rian on February 27, 2009
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So, I got up around 4am this morning… not bad at all! I should be able to stay up until 8 or 9pm tonight, then be back on a normal schedule. Finally!
The weather here is insane. Yesterday it hit 81 degrees out. Right now it’s 30 with a wind chill in the 20’s. And tomorrow we may get snow. Ridiculous! Good thing I didn’t sleep with my bedroom window open like I had planned. My apartment is already an icebox since I had my heat turned off.
So, I’m trying to think up what kind of green smoothie I’m going to have today. I think I’m going to try mixing spinach, a little chard, frozen strawberries and maybe some blueberries together. And maybe a banana. I’m really excited about these green smoothies and am going to have at least one every day! I got an amazing burst of energy from the one I made yesterday. It also upset my stomach a little, but I think it was the overload of raw greens and fruit together – my stomach wasn’t/isn’t used to it. That’s OK – it will get used to it soon enough.
I totaled my calories up yesterday and it turns out they aren’t too low, nor are they too high. I had 1155 yesterday altogether. I’m not going to worry about the scale for a while… by the fit of all of my clothing, I am still losing. Everything is big on me now – under clothing included. I need to try on some of the smaller jeans I have to see if they fit yet. I may do that later today.
Not much else to update… TGIF!!
I thought I would reply to a comment I got yesterday here in a post…
Hi Ryan,
to me it sounds like you are getting extremely obsessed with eating healthy. No meat, no eggs, no this no that. It actually has a name. Orthorexia nervosa. I don’t think you have it yet but you are going into that direction. Just try being a bit less obsessed. Enjoy food, even meat, fish, eggs. There is nothing disgusting about food like that. I eat all of it and I’m at a low normal weight, perfectly healthy, fit and good. It’s just not right if you have to think so much about what you eat. In Germany most people are not that obsessed with food. It actually sounds really strange to read your thoughts about food, we would probably say “typically american”.
Don’t misunderstand this! But just read some postings you made 3-4 months ago and some you made now. You sound a bit nuts. Relax girl!
I knew a day would come when someone would think I was developing an eating disorder because I have been so into eating healthy. Anyway, here was my reply:
Thanks for your comment. However, 3 or 4 months ago, I wasn’t losing weight. I wasn’t healthy. I felt like crap.
I’ve been feeling the most amazing bursts of energy, mental clarity and health lately. Best of all I am losing weight and slimming down.
If you are from Germany you wouldn’t understand what the food companies have done to American food, and how chemical-laden it really is. Our food is filled with chemicals our bodies weren’t meant to digest or deal with. Why do you think more than 65% of Americans are overweight? We aren’t all lazy TV-watching bums like the rest of the world thinks.
If it sounds “nuts” to get healthy and eliminate crap and chemically-laden food from my diet, than so be it. 
And yes, I am a little obsessed, but it won’t be that way forever. Eventually I will get used to eating this way and it will be so normal that I won’t even think about it. But it’s still brand new – I’ve been eating crap and processed chemicals for 30 years. But it’s only been about a month since cleaning up my diet.
I experimented a bit this morning and this is what I threw in the blender (all organic):
Kale
Swiss chard
Baby spinach
Frozen peaches
fresh pear slices
Distilled water
It came out pretty good! Next time I am going to put a banana in there, perhaps some parsley and more spinach – and a little less kale.
Mmmm. It’s actually pretty darn good!
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Lots of disjointed rambling ahead… read if you wish! It’s 2:30am and I’m bored.
First off, my sudden aversion to chicken and eggs was due to psychological reasons… sort of. Basically I’ve been reading a lot about the raw movement, and about raw, living foods. Some of the books and websites talk about how disgusting they think meat and eggs and dairy are. I read all the information and didn’t agree with it, but some of the things I read have stuck in my mind. Some of those websites really get into gory details about eggs, meat and especially dairy. I have decided to continue eating eggs and chicken, but I have to be honest: the joy of eating those foods is gone. If I didn’t need the protein, I wouldn’t eat them any more! (If someone can recommend me a good protein alternative that isn’t soy-related, let me know!)
I’ve decided to start incorporating green smoothies into my daily routine (like someone suggested in the comments section!) It’s suggested that you experiment with various fruits and greens, so that is what I’m going to do. I love cooked greens like spinach, chard, kale, etc, but it’s hard for me to eat them raw. (I do eat them in salads, but not very often). So blending them in a smoothie with fruit sounds like a fabulous way to get some more raw green goodness into my diet! I think I will try mixing both spinach and chard together with a banana and maybe a couple of pears… or an orange. I also have some flax seeds to throw in.
I’m contemplating going on a smoothie/juice fast sometime soon. More on that later…
So, my sleeping pattern continues to be royally screwed up. I get so tired staying up 20+ hours and end up dozing off. Not to mention my mental state is confused with the schedule changes, so half the time I wake up within a few hours. This is why I’m up now at 2:45am! I was supposed to stay up until 9pm last night and sleep until 5am. Didn’t happen…
Last night I was up around this time as well and went downstairs to the 8th floor parking area facing south to look for that comet (Lulin) that was/is passing by the earth. My building’s security guard happened to be there and we stood there looking at stars and chatting for almost an hour! He seems to be a pretty cool guy. I didn’t catch a glimpse of the comet, but there was a cool-looking pulsar changing colors.
I’ve been pretty bored lately… since quitting AA, my old “friends” abandoned me. They think that when a person quits going to the program, they are out getting drunk 24/7. Not happening in my case, although I have been allowing myself some organic wine from time to time. But it sucks – people I thought were friends really aren’t. I know I sang praises for AA in the past, but from what I’ve seen, most of the people there are either totally nutso, self-absorbed, mentally ill or have simply just traded one addiction for another. Many of the people go from drinking daily to chain-smoking and caffeine addiction. My ex T (who I was seeing a couple months ago) is clearly a dating addict. He goes from one woman to another in a matter of days of breaking up with someone! For instance, after telling me he loved me, etc, he was dating another girl a couple days later after we broke up. (A woman who is 10 years older than him and has a known reputation for sleeping around with tons of guys in AA). WhatEVer!
So I’m waiting for late March, when I will be heading to California to visit my older sister & her family and spend some time in Beverly Hills. I am hoping to go down at least a couple more sizes before then. My older sister is now the thinnest of all of us. I was the thinnest for most of our lives until recently! Now my oldest sister is the thinnest, followed by my younger sister, followed by me. :F#%%$#?@#%!@ The last time my older sister saw me, I was bloated up from constant alcohol use, but technically I weighed a few pounds less than I do now. However, I was a bigger size and my stomach was a lot bigger. I find it kind of odd that I’m a smaller size and have a much flatter belly but am at a higher weight. Hmm… it must be muscle.
Well it’s 3am now… time literally crawls by at this hour. I cannot wait until I’m on a regular schedule again. Hopefully by the weekend it will be normalized. I’m going to wait until 9am before I make myself a smoothie, since my blender is ridiculously loud and I have a sweet elderly lady next door that I don’t want to bother! I’m contemplating going downstairs to the 8th floor parking garage again but it’s cloudy out, although there is a good south/southwest view of the city down there. My apartment faces due north and has a completely different view.
Later Update:
OK it’s 5:26am and I just made some hard-boiled eggs for breakfast. It’s official: I just cannot eat eggs anymore. I forced them down and I just cringe and feel like gagging now when thinking about them. I am just going to have to find another source of protein.
