Losing Weight Is Painful

The “Are you losing weight?” questions and “Hey, you look thinner” comments have finally started… I notice when I look in the mirror that the bloated look is finally gone. Everyone knows I’m trying to lose weight and eat healthy but nobody (in my immediate circle) knows how hard I am trying.

And trust me, I am trying very hard. I have taken to eating much, MUCH smaller meals - sometimes just taking a few bites to take the edge off. Most of the time I’m not even hungry. I mean, why eat if I’m not hungry? That’s how I got big in the first place.

And damn, it’s painful. If I don’t have some sort of infection, I have a head cold. If my muscles aren’t sore from working out or something, then my stomach is hurting like a bastard. Today, while I was walking around the mall doing some Christmas shopping, it literally felt as though my stomach was eating its own lining. Granted, I hadn’t eaten all that much yet - a tiny bowl of Fiber One and a tomato, to be exact. I personally didn’t feel hungry, but my stomach was screaming at me. Oh, and yes, this happens every time I lose any serious weight.

Not to mention that I have to keep an eye on my electrolytes. If I start losing quickly, my sodium tends to go out of whack.

Not to mention I get heart flutters and palpitations throughout the weight loss progress. And I often feel light-headed at one point or another because my body doesn’t know if I’m going to eat “regular” or “just a little” at any given point.

I wish I could find some sort of happy medium for my body - where I can eat a set amount every day and continue to lose. But the problem is that my appetite is always changing, plus my body gets used to what I am dong pretty quickly, so the weight loss comes to a halt.

So it’s a painful, never-ending battle. And no, this doesn’t mean I’m going to give up. But I just wanted to complain for a while. There, all done!