Positive Ramblings

I haven’t lost 5 pounds, but forget what I said in my last post. I don’t want to stop posting here about my diet progress, because I think it’s good to keep track of what is going on!

I have a much more positive outlook right now. After thinking about this for a while, I’ve come to the conclusion that I am GLAD that it has been so hard for me to lose weight this time around. It’s taking a lot of work and a lot of effort.

But you know what? Once I do get down to my goal weight, I will be able to tell people with all honesty that I had to work my ass off (literally) to lose weight. That it was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. This is the real deal, and the harder it is for me to lose the weight, the more I will remember the struggle and the less chance I will have of gaining it back! I truly believe this.

Also, I can now understand how people feel when they are overweight. Before now, I was never able to, and always had the perception that overweight/obese people were lazy and disgusting and shoved their mouths full of food. (Yes, I can admit to thinking this way before). And to some extent, it’s true, but we have no right to make assumptions on how people gained weight. I mean, I didn’t get to my highest weight by sitting around on a couch and stuffing bonbons and twinkies into my mouth. No, I developed a bad habit (partying and alcohol drinking) that caused me to overeat and slowed my metabolism down to a crawl.

So I guess what I’m trying to say that, despite how hard and slowly the weight is coming off, I’m nowhere near ready to throw in the towel or get discouraged. I am seeing improvements all the time - in my stamina and strength, the way I feel, and the way my clothes are fitting. My PMS symptoms this time around are so mild I barely notice them. (A miracle when you consider my last few miserable, high blood-pressure months!) As a matter of fact, I didn’t notice I was PMS’ing until I looked at the date (and ok, maybe one or two mild physical symptoms).

So today, I have worked out for 20 minutes so far and burned 157 calories, which is excellent! I plan to do another 30 minutes at least later, maybe 40. I’ve lowered my calories a little more, but nothing drastic.

I suppose I will weigh myself again eventually… I shouldn’t do it right now because of PMS.