The Biggest Change
April 17th, 2007 by Rian | Filed under Miscellaneous.The biggest change right now is the layout of this website… as you will probably note. Also, I’m in the process of adding links to other diet and weight type of blogs. They should be up in the next 24 hours or so.
Not too much has changed otherwise. My “fat fat” clothes are fitting a bit more loosely. I think it has to do with the alcohol cessation, which has definitely made my face look less bloated. But I refuse to weigh myself until I can fit back into my sized 8 pants. Nonononononono.
To be honest, I’m not doing good with my diet. I think the only solution to my over-eating situation is to not keep ANY junk food in the house. None. At this current moment in time, I do not have any here, and I’m glad. For some reason, my willpower just gets non-existent anytime I am around any food. I cannot figure out why I am constantly “hungry”. I say that with quotes because I don’t believe it is true physical hunger.
People can say “just cut down on your food intake” and “exercise more”. But damn it is hard sometimes. Especially when… I feel I am constantly “hungry”. And, I was fighting a virus the past few days which made it difficult to even go anywhere, let alone do a workout. (I’m better now, though). The flu and some weird viruses are going around here right now (quite rampantly) and of course I would pick something up when I was on antibiotics for months.
I guess the only thing I can do is just pick myself up and start over. Again and again, until it actually works. So tonight I am making another effort. I’m going to the grocery store, buying ONLY healthy food. Salad, fruits, veggies, lean meats, puree juices. I’ve heard adding additional fiber to your diet is a huge appetite suppressant, so I’m planning to buy some fiber pills or powder.
Can I actually do it this time? Is this why so many people turn to extreme dieting methods - because they find the only time they have self-control is when they severely restrict themselves? I’m starting to wonder.
You say, “Is this why so many people turn to extreme dieting methods - because they find the only time they have self-control is when they severely restrict themselves?”, and that’s really funny that you said that because I have often wondered that at times. I will be fine and eat very healthy for one day and then the next day I just keep picking at things. I still eat healthy but I eat too many calories ( for example an extra serving of yogurt or another peanut butter sandwich). So then I tell myself I am going to restrict myself for a couple of days until I feel less bloated. And I too have noticed that sometimes it is easier to have self-control if I am restricting than if I try to have everything in moderation.
Yo, GoaD… the new site looks tres chic.
HANG IN THERE. You can do it. It looks like you’ve got the commitment - look at this great site! Plus the idea of going to the supermarket and sorting yourself out is a great plan. Very resourceful. I think it speaks of your unconscious trying to support your goals. And you’re doing it in the face of many challenges ie sickness, the “hungry” voices, work, friends etc etc. That’s pretty cool, huh?!
Did you like / have you seen The Devil Wears Prada? I find that dvd quite inspirational on the diet tip . I remember planning to watch the dvd eating a block of chocolate. I didn’t, and instead I went for a jog afterwards. Sometimes a bit of fantasy world is quite motivating.
On the other hand, i also think it’s good to let loose every now and then. Maybe give yourself one day when you can eat anything you want? It might be tomorrow, or next Wednesday if you’re feeling strong. The advantages of doing this are finding out what you truly feel if you let yourself follow the voices. I’ve found (sometimes!) when I do this that it’s not as great as i imagined it would be, and it gives me more motivation in committing to my goals.
But it’s a long, slow process. The cool thing is finding out what works for you, and then telling us on your blog!
you are doing sooo great!
xo
Wow, awesome design! I love it.